8:10 PM | Thursday, December 15, 2011
go back to the past
quietly wishing things will be like before. all the if only thoughts can keep coming,but thoughts are just thoughts. if only the thoughts happened in reality. sometimes i wonder why didn't i pushed it harder to make all this not possible anymore. it's like really back to square one. like everything gotta start all over again. promises are back to empty,half-fulfilled again. really wished i didn't see all the things i didn't want to see. hate this part,re-building.
10:18 PM | Wednesday, December 14, 2011
square one
It's been a while hey. don't even know whose reading the blog already anyway!life's been real good so far,but nevertheless there's still low points.maybe let's talk about today,was pretty excited. all ready to start the life again,and probably high hopes and expectations,it's a contradict to whatever it was said on the recording. at first,it might seems great. but i would say things are back to square one hey. it's time for i think the most suitable word to use in this situation,rebuilding once again i guess. probably it will take a while. but will see how it goes for the next one week or so. hah. life's really like a roller coaster. 360 deg turn? probably. 2011's ending. 2012 is coming,i so wish it could be a year of goodnessonce again. i wish for a getaway. make it a NEED.